Today we say our goodbyes and bury him. It is bittersweet, sweet that we were able to spend time with him for the birthday party and even managed a family photo, bitter that his death was by his own choosing. I have experienced depression and witnessed it in others, but I have not experienced or witnessed the point at which death feels easier. I cannot imagine the weight and hopelessness that accompanies such feelings and certainly didn't see or hear them from him just two weeks ago. I wonder if I had seen it...would I have had the words to lighten the weight and share just a little hope? Could anyone have been able to?
But I have to let go. His life and relationship with Christ were his own. I am not responsible for anyone but me (which, by the way, is really hard for this perfectionist/control freak to come to terms with). I am commissioned to love and encourage and share with those who will listen and let be those who won't. You are loved. You are precious. You are made in the image and likeness of the Living God. Whatever you face, He already has covered for you. You are not alone.
“In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
John 16:33b NIV
"Of the trillions of possibilities, God chose you specifically.
You are the one He wanted to create, maintain, protect, and provide for."*
You are the one He wanted to create, maintain, protect, and provide for."*
* The Ultimate Journey, Study Guide, page 143
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