Monday, I was working myself through a frustration. The exact details are not pertinent, the gist is that I had been depending on someone and they backed out. Plans change, I get that, and I honestly wasn't upset about that. I felt like I was left hanging. I had a plan. I knew what to expect, what was going to happen. Now, all that was gone. I was out of control, not knowing how this was going to affect me.
Crying out to God and so wanting Him to just tell me the answers...instead He gave me another question. When did I stop depending on Him? When did I transfer my dependance to myself and other human beings? And am I willing to give it back?
Wow! What a confrontation! God brought Ben and I together, held this property for us, led us through remodeling the corn crib, blessed us with four healthy children, warned us to get out of the corn crib when it was coming down and has led every step of this build. He knows what needs to be done to finish it, He already knows each step of this process. Why did I doubt for even a moment that He has us covered? That He has this house covered? His ways are better than mine! He makes all things beautiful in His time! He is capable of all my dependance!
Within 24 hours of this "class" we had two volunteers for drywall/mudding this Sunday and two references for reasonably priced mudding help. It was as if God was saying, "Ok, now that you are depending on me again, let me show you what I can do!"
Ok, You have my attention, Lord!
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