Excavation

After sitting for more than a month, excavation finally began! After tirelessly hunting for a builder and finalizing a plan for placement of the new building, we were ready to clean up the land and prepare it for the future.

I have been journalling a lot through this journey and am struck by the similarities between this process and the Christian life. When I step into covenant with God, He has to break up and remove all the old "me" to make room for His life in me. As we dug up and removed the old foundations on the property, things looked messed up, out of control and worse than when we started.




When God is working in me, in my life, I feel messed up, like things are out of sorts, out of control, like things are getting worse. But if I stop there, if I don't let Him continue, that is exactly what will happen. Only when I trust in His master plan, in His blueprint for me, and allow Him to finish His work, do things begin to take shape.


As the excavation continued, bit by bit, our plan became visible! It was so exciting to see in real life what we had been planning in our minds. But those who didn't know our plan, still couldn't see it...Only the people we had shared the blueprints and designs with could see what we could see. To everyone else, it was still a mess.

When God is finished tearing out the old, the new may still not be visible to me. Sometimes I get a glimpse of His blueprints, but sometimes I have to cling to hope that He is not done, that He will continue His plan and that it is a good one!

In life, this process can happen many times, as "old" is uncovered and more of "me" is "under construction"...but we only have simple plans for this little piece of property and don't see any more major renovations in the future!

Part of my journal included a good bye letter to our house...the building that had been our beloved home for so many years. As the foundation was buried, I buried the letter too. I found extreme healing in letting go and moving on!